BEFORE HE'S BACK

Before he’s back I’ll walk to the hardware store

at the hardware store I’ll buy brackets to hang my shelf

from my shelf I’ll sling my garbage necklace

next to my necklace I’ll place Phil’s prayer hand candle,

the little vase from Montana, pictures of the ones I love

I’ll take my vitamins, do push ups, watch the rain

I’ll think of home and wonder where it goes

I’ll sleep alone in the borrowed sheets (now mine)

and check my phone, and hang the mirror up with tacks

that looks like jewels – 

because it’s difficult to belong

to anyone or any body

my self so self

included